Truth be told, while doing something other than doomscolling is what brought me to starting a blog, the thing that's kept me here is procrastination. I started this blog right at the beginning of the second week of my semester, which may not be the greatest thing in the interest of being an academic weapon.
I think I'm still just trying to get out of the winter break mindset of just doing nothing, but at the same time my brain just isn't latching to my classes the way it was before. Which is weird because it's not like I hate all my classes. I've got 2 classes on information design which is a field I find really interesting and was genuinely excited for previously. I never really latched onto my social science class so I'm not worried about that, and I thankfully don't have any homework for my elective dance class so I'm not worried about that one either. The only class I actually hate is my UI/UX class but thats just because I hate having to do research for UI/UX projects. User research. Horrid.
Regardless, the idea of doing my classwork just kind of feels like its sloughing off my head like a wet carpet on ice. I think that's how the physics of that would work out. Is it time to go back to considering an ADHD diagnosis? Maybe! Could it be that I just need to try harder, whatever that means? Also probably maybe! I don't know! I want to do work, and I want to want to do work, but the idea of doing any of that just won't come to the front of my mind.
But we live. We go on. We ball. And we keep doing anything but my goddamn work. I really hope this doesn't keep up.
Other than that, life has been chill. Finally figured out how to do my makeup and hair in a way I like which is a great confidence boost. The outfits have been good. The thrift was kind to me. Playing and listening to music continues to be fun, and I may have a guitar in my future? Who knows!
Another week, another promise I'll do better. Another 7 days of holding out on the hope that promise stays true.
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