Its not that life has been bad per say, but I'm not sure if its reached the same level of good.
Again, nothing has been bad- my appetite is back in full force, I got to go out with my best friend for the first time in a long time, made sinigang with my roommate, finally got around to customizing the vans I bought back in December which means I can actually wear them now, I'm almost 3 weeks strong with my girlfriend. Yippie!
But on the flipside of that has been relationship anxiety that I've been working through--which is really the least bad of all of it because at least its somewhat expected--, the fact that I've been sleeping A Lot and generally don't have a lot of energy, a couple of mildly worrying urges are back, I haven't been able to focus for shit.
I think it might be the case of setting my expectations so high that its inevitable that where reality lands is below it. I do want to do things, and I've got things planned so its not just a slog of days ahead of me. However on the day to day I feel like I'm just not doing enough. Maybe putting more things into my calendar will fix that, who knows.
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